Tuesday, November 29, 2016

3am

in my drunken state I contemplate
falling from the storey bridge
a short walk from the too loud noise
a shy away from the too bright lights
escape the too expensive drinks &
two tired eyes
with blurry vision it's harder
to fix my lipstick line
to navigate the crowd
to see more to this life
a cocktail of substances
but I still lack substance
sick in the head right down to the stomach
it's midday the next day
I wake up
I feel fine
but even with 20/20 vision
I can't see a future
past 25

Sunday, November 27, 2016

vices & virtues

crimson & amber & sapphire & violet
colours painted by lust filled violence
thighs & throat & knees & heart
aching reminders in pretty marks
I don't deserve better

Sunday, November 20, 2016

selfless & selfish

everything I did for you
was to benefit
you
time, effort, money
I spent

everything you did for me
was to benefit
yourself
time, effort, money
you saved

you wouldn't know
selflessness
if it slapped you
hard & heavy
in the face

I'd give anything
to be that hand
hard & heavy
selfish, like you
for just one day

hsurc

the second
I heard
your voice
I knew

and when 
you laughed
my heart dropped
fuck, I thought,
I'm screwed 

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

rip

convincing myself
that I am over you
is exhausting
the memories replay
inside my head
the things you said
still haunt me
if you were never mine
you were never my loss
so why am I in mourning?